Posts Tagged ‘Daily’

My beautiful rose

June 5th, 2010

Anika Raissa, my beautiful rose.. Was born on May, 30th 2010. Weighed 650gr. Even with insufficient nutrition in the womb, she survived more than 7 months there! Subhanallaah.. The doctors said my umbilical cord’s very small, so she suffered a severe IUGR.

Now after she’s born, she needs to stay in the NICU for months until she gains another 1.5kg and manages to breath on her own. All I can do is just pray for my baby. Even with her tiny figure, she’s so lovable and I’m craving to hold her close in my arms soon..

My prayer for you my beautiful rose.. May Allah gives you strength and health, so you can come home to us, to the people who love you.. Amiin.anika

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So what’s the problem?

May 27th, 2009

The doctor suspected there’s something wrong with me, so he instructed me to do some lab test for TORCH, ACA, and other small tests.

We got the result last night, and read there’s nothing wrong with the result. Everything seems to be okay… So what’s the problem? Why do I keep losing my fetus? … and like I said, it’s already my third loss!!!

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What causes my reccuring fetal loss?

May 25th, 2009

….and this is gonna be my third…

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Good night

February 11th, 2009

My family has a bad habit. We don’t like to sleep early, usually we sleep after 10… or worse, after 12 am. Then my son inherits this habit. He always sleeps late since he was a baby.

Before he reached 1 year, we had to take him for a ride to get him to sleep. After a while it didn’t work anymore, we then took him for a ride using our motorcycle, then he would go to sleep. After he reached 2, neither of them worked anymore.

“Why is night longer than daytime?”, he once asked me. I said, “Of course not.. and what’s wrong with night time anyway?” I asked him back. He said, “I like daytime cause I can play..”

I need to get to work in the morning, and maybe cause I’m getting old, I feel it so exhausting to follow his schedule these days.

A few days back I started to “force” him to get to sleep on MY schedule. First, I took him to bed at 11. Then I reduced it to 10 and last night I made it 9 p.m.

It’s not hard at first. He cried and screamed yelling “I don’t like sleeping Mommy! I want to play!!”.. Then I’d just turn my back and close my ears with pillow, hoping I wouldn’t hear his screaming.. but still, it’s always louder when you hear a child screaming in the middle of the night :P .

Then after a while he poked me and say “Mommy! Mommy!”. And when I turned my face to him he said, “I love you mommy…” he said, still crying. How heartbreaking it sounds to hear it form that little mouth. Then I held him and say, “I love you too honey.. But you have to do what I’m telling you. We need to get to sleep now, I have to go to work tomorrow morning and you need to go to school…”. He started crying, “Noooo.. I don’t like sleeping.. I don’t like sleeping..!!”. I put him back to bed and leave him cry to sleep.

To tell you the truth, I never had a heart to leave my son cry to sleep like that. But I think sometimes being hard is necessary…

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